I didn’t attend.
Okayyy people are going to slate me for being stupid for missing out a once in a lifetime opportunity, and for being an unfilial child because my parents didn’t have the chance to see their hard work and efforts pay off.
I didn’t want to attend because I see no value in this degree. Yes this whole commencement thing is a rite of passage, but what is the point of doing so when I couldn’t relate myself to the whole symbolism behind it? In fact my decision of not to attend was made up last year when I already lost the passion for my course.
So while others were happily posing and posting their photos on facebook… I was working another 10 hour shift. I don’t have any regrets. I rather learn what is common sense, how to work smart and how to build a team.
And coincidentally my dad got hospitalised during this period. Apparently he was coughing quite badly so my mum brought him to SGH A&E and he had to be warded. And SGH being SGH scheduled the CT scan next Monday, which meant more days of worrying, more trips to the hospital, hospital bills etc etc.I was working overtime during Hari Raya because the orders were overwhelming, until I checked my phone and saw the whatsapp from my mum.
Even if I registered for commencement my parents wouldn’t be able to make it anyway.
Working life and being a student are worlds apart. I don’t have the energy to explore places and get into excitement mode. My off days are for sleeping and lazing around and I really need some quiet time alone after dealing with customers for the most of my time.
And lastly, I have deactivated my instagram. I rather delete my social media accounts than to give anyone my password, or being asked to remove any of my friends off the list.
I am fine. I have to be fine even if life is not going fine for me.