Yet another long week has passed.
What I am desiring for is to recharge myself in a quiet place, away from noise and distraction. The last thing I ever want to do is to mingle with unfamiliar people in any social situations. I find it difficult to conjure a reason to turn down the invite, as well as explaining what an introvert needs.
I want to be alone, and I don’t wish for any company- but how should I phrase it in a polite way, so that outgoing people won’t feel hurt for their nice gesture?
No I am not anti-social. I take longer to get along with people. The fact is I can never get along with everyone, especially if the person is loud, boisterous, bimbotic and disrespects my need for privacy. I don’t see the need to understand them at a deeper level.
It is not that I don’t make the effort to talk. I just don’t dominate group conversations. I like to listen and sometimes laugh for the sake of laughing. I will shut myself off in large groups if the talk doesn’t interest me. But if the topic falls into my areas of passion, I can go on for hours.
You may enjoy yourself during parties, drinking sessions, clubbing, ktv-ing. But those are the activities at the bottom of my bucket list (apart from teaching). People, people, people everywhere. It is torturous to the introvert when they are with people whom we aren’t close with. It feels superficial. Again, I don’t see the need to understand about your crazy side, nor to witness your unpredictable behaviour after getting drunk or high.
People may rebut that dancing and yoga are activities where you are also surrounded by people. But that doesn’t involve much socialising with others. Apart from some small talk with a few people, most of the time you are interacting with yourself to discover where your mind, body and spirit lie that day.
But I am not ashamed of myself being an introvert. Just leave me alone to enjoy my date with myself.